I usually start Mondays feeling extraordinarily hopeful and excited, writing about getting motivated and finding what you love with each one of my posts. However, today’s post is not about that. It’s been a while since I’ve talked about my struggles and things that may not go as well as I want them to. I’ve tried to keep up the positivity to help me grow as a small business owner, but I’m at an impasse.
It seems to be getting harder and harder to wake up cheerful and motivated, it seems to have become even harder to keep telling myself that it’s all going to be okay. Every person trying to build something from scratch goes through this type of period at times – a period where you feel like things aren’t moving fast enough, you’re not progressing enough and you’re simply not where you want to be.
Deep down, I know patience is key in this sort of situation but knowing and believing are two different things and I’m struggling to believe I’m going to make my business as successful as I’m dreaming it up to be. Not because my work isn’t good enough or my efforts are insufficient but simply because a lot of the time I doubt I can achieve success.
I doubt my abilities and what I can do even when no one has expressed a concern or issue with them. I simply doubt myself and my chances of succeeding by default. A default I’ve had for many years and something that’s been hurting my self-esteem for a long time.
In this fight of building a business from the ground up, I’ve learned a lot about myself. I’ve learned that I am creative, talented, and determined but I’ve also learned I’m scared of failure and have very little faith in myself. It’s difficult to accept the good and the bad of this journey because it involves working on myself quite a lot on top of working on my business, but I do believe that if I don’t start to take some things more seriously it could negatively impact my future.
Sometimes it’s not all positive and some days are not as productive. Today, a Monday nonetheless may feel like mine for a lot of people, and instead of burying your feelings and trying to stay positive despite it all, allow yourself to feel what you need to feel. Whether it’s good or bad, allow yourself to feel what your body is telling you to feel.
Don’t hide from the struggles and the negative stuff, welcome it and nurture the side of you that perhaps is a little bit more hurt today than usual. I hope instead of a productive Monday that you have a healing one if things have not been going well for you lately and I hope you find the time to give yourself some love and understanding.
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